Patty Smyth - Goodbye To You (OMG Is This a Great Song or What?)

What's the Big Deal About Coffee?

I myself have never consumed as much as one sip of coffee.  The smell of it alone is enough to make me gag.  However, I do enjoy mocha flavored food, as long as it isn't too strong.  31 Flavors makes a killer mocha shake.

I prefer to ingest my caffeine by way of soda pop.  Sometimes diet Coke and sometimes regular Pepsi.  It's cold, it's refreshing and it's a much more effective waker-upper than a hot beverage.  About the only hot things I drink are apple cider and hot chocolate.  Both of them make me want to go back to bed and get under the covers.

Just my two cents.

KennaBeans * A Fresh New Blog

My future daughter-in-law has recently begun to blog.  She has some amazing things to say.  And I'm not just braggin' on her because I adore her.  Check her out, you will see what I mean when I say A-M-A-Z-I-N-G.

http://kennabeans.weebly.com/

And, to quote Kenna, "Until next time, stay cool beans."

I'm Stingy

Yes, I'm stingy.  I see it more and more as the days go by.  I am very aware that my resources are limited, and it's important that I not waste them.  By resources I mean time, emotions, effort, and vulnerability.  I want to share the best of myself with people who truly appreciate me.  People who feel I add something of value to their lives.

And....I hate being ignored.  I give 110% in my relationships, and don't expect the other person to mirror that, but they should come close the majority of the time.  If they are too preoccupied to make me a priority, that's fine.  To borrow part of the title of a popular book, maybe they're just not that into me.  I'm not going to make a voodoo doll in their likeness and stick pins it.  I'll just stop investing my resources in that person.  To handle things any differently would require me to be fake, and that is something I cannot and will not do.

I think it's healthy to take a periodic inventory of the relationships in our lives.  If you're anything like me, you don't have to make time for this inventory because you have your own built-in warning system.  A system that alerts you when things are one-sided.  The bottom line is to value yourself, value your emotions, and value your time.  It's okay to be stingy.  Trust me on this one.

Quote of the Day

"There are some cases where Memory Lane should be closed to Through Traffic."

~ Me

He Gets It

I recently wrote a post called "One Foot Out the Door" concerning my son and his forgetfulness of "the rules."  He doesn't read my blog (big surprise there....lol) so today's phone call from him was completely innocent and not meant to score brownie points:

Him:  I'm just calling to let you know I have one more call to do (he works in merchandising) and then I'm going to see Pastor Chris, to fix his computer at 5:30.

Me:  Okay, thank you for letting me know.

Him:  I just wanted to you know because I didn't want you to plan something special for dinner and then I didn't show up.

Me:  Is Pastor Chris going to feed you dinner?

Him:  I don't know, but if he doesn't, I'll feed myself when I get home.

Me:  Okay, thank you - love you.

Him:  I don't want you to think that I take anything for granted because I'm not home.  A lot of parents get upset if their kids are never home.

Me:  I understand you never being home.  You're doing what you're supposed to be doing.  You know you have a bed and food and a place to rest and relax, when you need it.  That's our job as parents and as long as you are considerate, as you have been, we're good.

Him:  Thank you Mom, I appreciate that.

He does get it.  And he's a considerate, caring guy the majority of the time.  Fills my mother's heart with pride.

Two of My Most Favorite People

My son Jacob and his beautiful bride-to-be, McKenna.  Just look at that gorgeous ring too!

Attacks of ...... Panic

They occur far less frequently now, than they used to.  And that is how it should be since the traumatic event was eight years ago.  Yet to certain parts of my mind, the event was only yesterday.  That is the sad, cold truth of the matter.

My pain clinic doc wanted me to see their in-house family nurse practitioner.  I don't know why, and was never told why when I was contacted to schedule the appointment.  I already have a FNP and I would never give her up.  The appointment was today and about an hour beforehand the meltdown began.  Bottom line is I cancelled at the last moment, and now the provider must approve a future re-schedule.

It's impossible not to beat myself up over this kind of thing.  Yet logically I know all I can do at this point is accept the fact I will need to ask my husband to take me to future appointments of this type.  I will have to schedule them when he is available, and that's the way it has to be to avoid having this happen in the future.

Take a deep breath, suck it up, and move on.

Underwear

It's highly overrated, in my opinion.  It annoys me the way it bunches up or moves around.  And don't get me started on the old visible panty line phenomena.  I just don't like it and therefore, I rarely wear it.  I have a few pair, in case I have to go to the hospital.  Men are a lot more accepting of this.  Other women find it cheap and tacky.  So to shut them up I boldly announce, "I don't shave my legs either!"  Oh yeah, that always gets me a gasp or two or three.  THEN, I show them a leg and they bend down and examine it closely.  No tricks, no applications of hot wax or hours spent with tweezers.  I'm fair skinned and not a hairy person, I explain.  Haven't had to shave my legs for the past 15 years.  Whatever judgment they would have passed at the lack of under garments is quickly replaced by wonder and awe at my amazing hairless legs.

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No White Gloves Allowed

I made a quick visit to a dear friend's home last night.  She was apologetic because things were not in perfect order.  When it comes to being apologetic about a messy house, I am the QUEEN!  And rightfully so.  I have the most chaotic house of anyone I know.  It isn't right and it certainly is not fair to my husband or son.  But I digress.  

I did not see anything out of place at her house.  I only saw HER, and her sweet and funny husband.  I wasn't looking for dust or prints on the fridge.  If someone is your friend, they come to see you, not to inspect your house.  Anyone who knows me knows how I struggle to contain my creative messes.  They also know there is so much more to me than what meets the eye.  

Driving home I was thinking how sad it is that we worry about what our friends think of our housekeeping skills.  Because, if the friend isn't worrying, why should we?  We all lead hectic lives, but what's wrong with grabbing a pizza or some sandwiches at Subway and just hanging out together?  Let the dust bunnies fall where they may.

One Foot Out the Door

My son will be 20 in three weeks.  He's cooked.  He's ready to fly the coop.  And surprisingly enough, I'm ready for him to be on his own.  This is an extremely rational and psychologically healthy stand for a mom like me to take.  A mom who cried every first day of school up until his last year of high school.

He will be married in 11 months.  Yes, he's young and she is even younger.  They'll be okay though, because they both put God #1 in any situation, and especially in a marriage.  She has more maturity and grace than women twice her age.  And strength born from suffering things no young girl should have to endure.  It's obvious that God has put them together.  It won't be easy, but they will make it work.  They have many good people in their lives to help them through the rough spots, after marriage loses its new car smell.

We just have to survive these next 11 months with a young adult who seems to have forgotten the rules.  Rules like "because I said so" and "when you are living under my roof you live under my rules."  Mom and Dad may have to offer up a little continuing education on the finer points of parent/kid relations.  And if we do, that's fine.  We haven't come this far to wimp out now.

Another C Word

Colonoscopy.  My husband is having one tomorrow morning.  This will be his second time at bat.  Every five years they say.  I really do not think I could do it.  Not the procedure - the preparation.  I get extremely nasty when my blood sugar drops.  After even just a few hours of clear liquids I'd be up in a tower with hubby's gun.

Then there is the 800 gallons of "stuff" you have to drink.  "Stuff" which cleans you out.  He follows the instructions and always, and I mean always, achieves the desired result.  I just know if I tried it, they would get halfway through the test and find some corn from 1996 and I'd be rescheduled to do the whole thing over again.  

Plus, I'm just not compliant.  I'm the one who eats a peanut butter sandwich and drinks a can of diet Coke four hours before general anesthesia.  Why?  Because I can.

I'm Not Stupid

I'm not stupid.  I'm not stupid.  I'm not a brain surgeon either.  But I am reasonably intelligent.  If I really want to learn something, I am capable of learning it.  Even brain surgery.  At least, I used to be capable.  Probably way too old to learn it now.  But I do have incredibly steady hands and a love for working with tiny things in small, cramped spaces.  The mechanics of a light bulb should not defeat me.

My small gooseneck over the work table lamp was fluttering.  Assuming the bulb had loosened ever so slightly, I gently turned it to the right.  Because....righty tighty, lefty loosey, correct?  I'd like to be able to tell my ultra handy husband what I did to separate the light bulb into two pieces, but I have no idea.  He can look at a piece of furniture in a magazine and build an exact replica.  It's a real jolt to my pride to have to tell him I couldn't tighten a light bulb.

I could be a modern woman and attempt to fix it myself.  But I'm smart enough to know (see!) not to mess around with a light which is still plugged into the wall.  To unplug this light would require me to crawl underneath my work table.  I may be a gambler in Vegas, but not so much with my injured rotator cuff.  It just isn't worth moving or  twisting the wrong way.  Much more prudent to wait till hubby gets home.

In the meantime I've been working in the bathroom, sitting on the toilet.  That adds a whole new layer to the glamour of being self-employed.  And yes, the lid is down.  After all, I'm not stupid.

Quote of the Day

“I have found that when you are deeply troubled, there are things you get from the silent devoted companionship of a dog that you can get from no other source.”

- Doris Day

The C Word

Cholesterol.  It's an old person word.  An old person concern.  And strongly influenced by those who came before us.  My numbers are awesome.  My husband's are not.  It sucks, especially these days when I don't want to cook and I don't want to think about what people are going to eat for dinner.  If I were living alone I'd go to Papa Murphy's and order a family size Chicken Garlic, no tomatoes, sub mushrooms, and that would keep me fed for three days.

My hubby is a great cook, but he likes to be told what to cook.  A menu, a plan.  My son is 19, engaged, popular, and it's summertime.  That adds up to him rarely being here for meal times.  I'm just going through a cranky food time of life.  I'll snap out of it!  Really.....I will!

Summer Attire

95% of women who wear sleeveless clothing.....shouldn't.  The word "hamhock" comes to mind.  Or is that two words?  Either way, cover it up.

If I Ran the World - Bratty Kids Would Be the Exception, Not the Norm

I cannot tolerate bratty kids.  I could use 300 point font, all caps and a million exclamation points and still not convey the true depth of how much I hate bratty kids.  Then there's the word "hate."  Strong word.  Do I hate the actual child?  Of course not.  The hate is reserved for the parents.  Especially the parent who laughs nervously, rolls their eyes and mumbles "I just don't know what to do with him/her!"  I seriously want to shake people like that.

There are no perfect children and there are no perfect parents.  But parenthood is not rocket science.  Parenthood is common sense, cause and effect, action and reaction.  To be a good parent you have to embrace the Golden Rule and be able to share that knowledge with your offspring. 

My son was precocious, opinionated, stubborn and hard-headed.  No doubt at all who his mother was!  Thankfully he was not a biter, but he did find it amusing to poke people in the eye.  Actually that's worse than biting now that I stop and think about it.  First poking incident was met with a stern but gentle admonition because, after all, he's two years old.  Second poking incident the message was stronger and harsher, hopefully to get the point across.  Unfortunately, there was a third poking.  It was swiftly followed by a fourth, that being my finger into his little eye.  A look of horror came across his face.  Then the tears fell and the crying commenced.  And here's the shocker!  He never poked anyone in the eye again.  He actually tells that story to illustrate the no-nonsense way he was raised, and to proclaim he will raise his kids the same way.

He threw a hissy fit in a restaurant.  Once.  He laid down and pitched a mega fit in Target.  Once.  He did many if not all of the things every normal kid does.  Once.  When his behavior did not achieve the desired result and backfired on him, he was intelligent enough to learn his lesson.  Kids are incredibly more intelligent than we give them credit for.  Sadly, most are far more intelligent than the people who brought them into this world.

Girls vs. Boys

I only have one child (that I know of).  Years before I got pregnant I began to very respectfully ask God to bless me with boy children.  I knew in my heart boys would be best for everyone concerned.  I found out I was having a boy at the actual moment I gave birth to a boy.  My son was shy and managed to conceal his privates during two ultrasounds.

I still believe I was a better boy mom than I would have been a girl mom.  But every once in a while, boy oh boy (mega pun intended) do I wish I had a girl to talk to.  A girl would understand my emotions.  A girl wouldn't stare at me with absolutely no clue what to say.  A girl would get me.